and i told him, i said, "look, i will sign for you a release from the cia, fbi, nsc, whatever you want, but prove to me that i am a security risk," and he never came up with any document to substantiate what he had said. but i believe to a great extent that he was led by other people who i was critical of because of the poor equipment that was being used in the resupply operation and, god knows, all the things that they were telling him at the time. c-span: you wrote, "one is that north had grandiose ideas about himself." what did you mean? >> guest: well, i was one time, for example, sitting in his office, and he received a phone call from somebody and he said in the telephone, "i have in front of me my chief of operation in central america," and it was at the time that i just started the work with him and there was no such an organization as a chief of operations in central america for him. i was just helping him implement the help of the nicaraguan resistance, which i strongly supported. c-span: "he also had the habit of telling people that i had been recruited by him, indeed he wou